okay , after this post , remind me that life is full of sunshine ,
i really don't want to be complaining every single post i post up
and about similar things too :/
but i can't help it , its bottled up and i need to let it out

still , life is pretty when people do care , so
THANKS ZHANHONG , YITING , EDDIE , YAO SEN , CHAO DONG
idk if you will see this ,
but know what , i really appreciate your concerns
esp ZhanHong , since you weren't present but still asked about me (:
and YiTing , for listening to me rant on and on :D
actually i didn't mean to cry , believe me , and certainly not in front of people .
i just can't take it anymore ..
still yeahs ,
ps : LCD , sorry :X didn't mean it .. hahahas , it just happened you were in front so ..
still , i ♥ you guys okay ! :D
and thanks zijian for the help today ♥

do note that this is really what i feel and i'm not trying to be dramatic or whatever you think i'm trying to be -.-

i've learnt alot of things today , with all the reflecting (:
firstly , the people i always faked happy for , they won't give a DAMN even if i don't pretend
so i was super STUPID to pretend to be happy thinking they might be worried
yeah , i know , i'm stupid , whatever
i have to admit to myself ,
even though trying hard ,
it didn't work , and i've enough on my hands ,
idk if you felt it or not , but well now
i no longer wish to care
and somemore ,
everything's just crap .
staying up just to listen to you rant and all ,
always giving you hints to solve problems ,
actually helping you to solve problems
always going with you to places ,
ohyeah, its NOTHING
when you have others , you DON'T need to give a damn about me
i'm sad doesn't matter , i'm upset doesn't matter one ,
only other's matters ,
whether i want to go a not also nevermind ,
doesn't matter , you hungry mah
can't even wait , i'm not worth it
cause everything that matters is when you are all together
ohwell , its okay , from now on , you can carry on in your group ,
i'll just be close with those that want to be close to me from your group .

secondly ,
no matter how much effort you put in ,
some people just won't see it
biased mean biased ,
have abilities also no use -.-
still , i make it known , i don't give a damn about the vp position ,
i don't mind quitting ,
i'm helping you only because you're my friend
but you better don't take too much advantage ,
idc if you got protection for cca
cause life isn't only about cca
there's still the council .

enough is enough ,
the bio practical is waiting for me , byebye people
trust me , i've no intention of hurting anyone .
you not happy , gimme a call . i'll gladly explain to you
& for the people who DO care , i know you do
and i super duper appreciate you guys ! ♥
bye people ,
ABIGAIL