Today was nice :) visited uncle jimmy's new abode. Temporary one anyway. It's rather nice and homey, but a stark contrast to the previous one. Still, both are nice! Heh. Today was rather eventful, well, not really. It's just that my emotions was kinda screwed up. I didn't even do any work. Slacked all the way :x and I remembered there's a biology test this coming Monday. Isn't that awesome? :)

since when did making the right decision become so hard? Wasn't I always able to keep my emotions in check? What happened to the Abigail that didn't show emotions? I'm tired, of everything. So screwed. How did everything end up this way? My beautiful life just makes me want to run away now, for one reason or another. No, correction, it's not that I want to run away. It's people wanting to leave my life cause of reasons. Well, I'm pretty sure it ain't me they're trying to leave. Still, I always took for granted they'll be here. It's hard to imagine. And, there's a thousand fears. And the more I think about it, the more scared I become. Yet I know that making them stay might not be good. Either way, I don't like. And it's hard to convince either parts of myself. It's not my choice, that's for sure. Yet, I can't stop this overpowering feeling. Please don't ask, I really don't want to talk about this. I will tell you if I want to talk about it anyway.

Right? Wrong?
Time. For the first time in my life, I actually feel like time is running out. But I can't do nothing. Just standing there and looking at everything. Screw this. I hate not being able to do anything. How my greatest fear is approaching me, and I can't run away. Time is running out. Although I pray not. It's not the end of the world. Abigail, you know it's not. You just need to convince yourself. At least they're healthy :)
and I thought my nightmare this morning was scary. At least it was just a dream. This is reality.

Sorry for being emo. I just needed to let everything out. I'm probably just over reacting right? Yeah. Over reacting.

Bye world :) nights.