Hang On,

seems like thats the only thing i can try to do.
now im beginning to wonder how i survived my secondary three year
was i as busy as i am now? doubt so.. i guess i have to be less lazy.
im just sorry my parents have to suffer with me :/

Can someone please convince me that i will be able to squeeze time to complete everything?
honestly, im really worried about LTC, about not being able to finish the proposals on time etc.
im really glad i didnt run for presidency now, only personnel director.
AND I MOST CERTAINLY WONT RUN FOR THE CARE REP THING NOW
im actually considering pulling out of BOD since i alr have care rep to save my ass.
buuut, i decided that i will stretch myself in TJC. and thats what i will do.
but i think if i dont enter the BOD, i wont be upset and will be relieved instead.
Either way i will still try my best to enter the BOD.

i will study hard and not fail my JCT.
i heard our J3 this year didnt do well and underperformed. really really worried now, if i dont manage to clear JC i really dont know what to do.
hais, im intimidated by everything now. seriously.

i think i will use my March Hols to mug, like really really hard. i will stick to my words and not slack. thinking back, i guess its a good thing i didnt take the northpoint show yesterday. if i took i have no idea how will i survive :O esp since im slower compared to others and need more time to understand whatever we are learning now. im pretty sure my learning methods in Secondary School would not see me through JC. i hope the struggling is only because everything is new and things will get better over time. i have to admit its alot better than the start when i am literally struggling with EVERYTHING. and thankfully i have very helpful classmates.

i am not sleeping in lectures and tutorials. Ivy Loh would be proud of me cause i listened to her.
buuuuuut, i have to make a little more effort to pay attention during lectures although they are boring me like crazy and i cant help but stone.

i guess its a good thing that i am busy with school and all, at least i wont have the time to think about other things. Actually anyone who know me well would know that i am 嘴硬心软 by nature, soooooo.. it isnt that surprising that i would think once in a while. BUT im proud to say, i dont feel sad anymore :) i hope zhanhong is proud of me :) heehee

well, im done ranting about my boring JC life. i shall get started on my PW tonight, and then move on to redox. feeling like hardworking only :)

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE :)