Fear drives away more magic,
and it seems like i've fallen prey to this horrible monster.

Been such a coward recently that i just cant stand myself.
Bleh, why have i turned into such a coward.
Maybe it is not unfounded, but how can i live instead of exist when all these fears hold me back?

I think im used to having an emotional pillar, such that once they disappear i find myself in a panic and paranoia. guess that's what happened when you're pampered.
didnt even realised i've grown so reliant on people, just like how i didnt realise i couldnt suppress my emotions anymore till its too late. hmm..

such an irony though, dont you think? haha

alright even rants.
GOODNIGHT :)